Today I have to turn in my "reflection" for my senior project, but I am definitely not going to stop writing in this blog. I'll be honest - I haven't been focusing on my pulling lately as much as I would like. Of course, I'll keep trying, but I think that the main goal of this blog has shifted a bit over the past couple months. Stopping my pulling habit is very very hard. I think I underestimated how much work it would be when I signed on to "make every effort possible" to stop. However, this blog has done much more than influence my pulling. Looking back to the day that I posted my first entry, I was terrified. Nobody outside of my family and closest friends knew about the disorder. It was awkward if anyone asked what I was doing for my senior project. Now if anyone asks, I happily tell them about it, and try to give them as much information as possible. It's as if I have beaten Trichotillomania, because it doesn't suck so much every time I pull out a hair. It's just life. And it's what helped me start this blog. It even gave me my passion about neuroscience. No, it's not a good thing, but it's not so bad after all.  As far as continuing my efforts to stop, I have been taking to NAC pills every night. So far I haven't noticed any change, but who knows. My urges could be much worse without them. I did stoppulling.com for a while, but so far it hasn't helped much simply because I am so busy and often don't have time to plug in the numbers for the day. I'll give it a couple more weeks of effort, but I may give up on that since it is costing me money. I've been trying methods such as clenching my fist every time I want to pull, and distracting my hands. Sometimes, they do work. I'll keep researching some more!